Crossword-Solution: OFMY 4 letters, 9 clues 🏆 scrabble score: 12

I was terrified of my weakness, of my sharp tongue, ofmy every flaw. I was terrified that this moment, my chance tolive in happiness for however short a time we may have had, would be ruined because I was simply not carved out of thesame wood as happiness, and that my grain was too twistedto ever take its form.

This time, something different happens, though. It’s the daydreaming that does it. I’m doing the usualthing — imagining in tiny detail the entire course of the relationship, from first kiss, to bed, to moving intogether, to getting married (in the past I have even organized the track listing of the party tapes), to howpretty she’ll look when she’s pregnant, to names of children — until suddenly I realize that there’snothing left to actually, like, happen. I’ve done it all, li…

It was one of those moments that would have had dramatic music if my life were a movie, but instead I got a radio jingle for some kind of submarine sandwich place blaring over the store's ambient stereo. The movie ofmy life must be really low-budget.